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I am crying. I worried about Colin. He hasn't left the heating pad by my computer all day. Not to eat, not to drink, or even Pee. And they gave him a boatload of subcutaneous fluids yesterday. I feel horrible, like I'm just watching him die. I have found he likes the liver squeezy cheese I bought to put in the dog's Kong. So I've been trying to give him that at least to try to stimulate his appetite, or at least get something down. No dice, he's not interested. Oh, he gave it about 5 licks or so. But not much went down. I know I have to take him back Monday to the Vet's office (he's been yesterday, and Thursday) and I am so worried. I hope I can get him in to see the vet proper and not just a vet tech for fluids (like yesterday). I feel rather helpless. We're giving him a pill antibiotic twice a day, plus his prednisone and pepcid and B12. That's a lot of pills for any cat to choke down and I don't feel good about shoving them down his throat. He's lost too much weight and feels far to fragile in my arms. I'm afraid I'll break him if I don't hold him right. He's wheezing worse than my grandmother.  ¶ 1:26 PM