Ot/Occasional

I keep having terrible nightmares. They don't help me with my quality of sleep and they don't make me feel refreshed. I've been dreaming more and more about car accidents. And stranger dreams than that. I have nightmares more often when I am cold, so I am positively fanatical about too many blankets.

This afternoon I napped, and I dreamed, and I met Gram. She looked about 50 and very happy, which was a mild comfort to me. She chided me about her hair- why on earth had anyone told her not to get with the times and let her keep wearing the same hair style for decades? She cut the curls off and let it be, and with the curls went her wrinkles and all of the weight she'd been carrying metaphorically- it was the burdens and worries that made her back bent.

And I dreamed of other car accidents too. And of courting a pirate while living in my mother's house, which looked like a small Catholic church- only with a bar where the altar ought to be. That creeped me right out, really. I tell myself I should not let myself get so exhausted, but then I don't sleep at all, and I think that's worse.

I worry too much.  ¶ 3:57 PM